21

Turned 21 last week and apart from the initial euphoria of being able to drink anywhere in India legally and also the ability to get married to any person of the opposite sex i choose and who maybe out of her mind to make such a decision ... I dont really feel anything

21 for me was a very important landmark since a long time ... always figured that by the time i reached this age i would be mostly sure about where i was going and what i was doing in life ... to be able to guide myself to a certain goal and have something in my mind about what i wanted to do about my life and all the uncertainites that were unresolved in my head !

I've been spending most of my days ever since wondering about what's been missing from life ... about where i went wrong ? when and where will i get the answers to my questions? or maybe i've just been thinking too much ... there is no answer ... there is no question ... everything is just unrelated and 21 is just a number or is it !

The only time i find some measure of peace is when i'm lying down in the grass in the valley and staring up at the sky ! watching the clouds roll past these infinite planes lighted by the gentle rays of the moon ... watching how the stars make patterns in the sky and how the clouds and the celestial bodies team up to show me a glimpse of the future and the past at the same time ! The night sky for me is a guide to all the answers a person may ever ask or even think of ! Drinking a beer and smoking a cig ... having a little floyd to listen to just makes the experience even better ! things i'm gonna miss when i get back to delhi ...


A lot's been going on recently ... This is about how some people are leaving manipal for good and they're never coming back (graduating is simpler word use)! We started out as friends ... became something more than that ... fought ... bitched ... and cried ! But when it's time to say goodbye its better to let go of that ego ... do the right thing ... see each other one last time ... shake hands and move on ... the end of an era i'll like to add !

Random thought - Whats with the skyrocketing oil prices ? Has the highest production level of oil actually been achieved and is the supply of oil only going to go down now ? The price of a barrel of oil has increased 6 times in the last 6 years ! Gotta do with a variety of other factors like ... tensions in the middle east ... saudi arabia not increasing it production ... china needing more diesel due to the earthquake and the olympics this year ... investment in oil bonds by companies like goldman sachs and all ... random analysts making crazy claims ... what's the world coming to ?

Ok back to 21 ... turning 21 didnt make me feel any different! i still am what i am ... maybe i just wanted to feel a different way about life and love ... get a different perspective ... learn something new ... but i guess i'll just have to wait ! lazy and impatient at the same time doesnt really make a good combination !

what do i want for my birthday ... well to start with ... happiness and health for family and frens ... world peace (or atleast something close to that ... free oil !!!) ... a greater understanding of this world and its people ... wanna read more talk less and listen to more good music ... free booze and discounted cigarettes ...

these are one of my favourite things !!!

anyways enough ranting for now ... tc ppl peace

p.s : a little love might help ... you know