whats with life anyways ??? u enter the world with nothing but those puny hands and those clumsy legs, a brain which is nothing but the perversion of all things "human"
you live for people around u always ... parents,friends,acquaintances,teachers,bosses .... since the day we are born we are told to get this get that ... rather searching for our
own happiness we are forced to enslave ourselves to the idea of making everyone else happy !! get good grades, get a six figure pay packet, look good ... does
anyone ever come to you ... to ask you what do u want ??
biggest problem ever ... do you really know what you want ??? we are fed these lies ... these ideas on how to live our lives ... they tell us we were born for a reason
some great special thing that we are born to achieve ... makes us feels like kings,queens, rockstars, actors ... whtever !! and then life rolls by ... you find out you're anything
but special ... just a loon trying to justify an existence which is anything but great ??
i once had an idea about what i wanted to do ... what i really wanted to be ?? but that all changed ... maybe it was the world around me or the world inside of me ...
there was this ticking time bomb which just went off ... whatever i was doing just had no reason at all .... some call it complacency ... others call it ineptitude or maybe i am
just too lazy for the world ...
frankly i dont work cause i dont find a reason to work ... i'm supposed to be doing an engg ... wasnt it a science ?? am i not supposed to think ??? but no they come and fuck
that up to ... just memorise that ... do that .. do those boring assignments again and again ... no respect for thinking out of the box ... no alternative but to mimic what they teach !!!
learning from teachers who are fed up with their own lives and about what they are doing and why they are doing it ??
the world is where it is right now ... people dying of hunger even thou there is enough food ... disease even thou there are enough drugs to fight them ... terrorists who think that
they have a point to prove by creating senseless chaos and terror in the minds and hearts of the people they dont even know !! politicians,statesmen,diplomats whose only goal in
life is there 5 minutes of fame and a huge bank balance !!!
why are we here ?? cause no one knows what they are doing ... every one is living an illusion ... people who believe this illusion are mind fucked all the time but they refuse to see it ...
their life and there blood is being sucked by this unknown leech but they refuse to get out of this dream ... a nightmare !!! they know that if they stir things up ask questions ... all they
are ever going to get are skeletons out of the closet and the very foundations their lives are made on are going to crumble !!!
some say they do it for love , for the greater good ??? what does love give us any ways ... more pain more suffering !! almost all of the atrocities the world has ever seen have been
carried out in the name of love ... love is what tortures us ... ever twisted and turned and not being able to sleep when u had a crush ??? have you never seen people kill other people
just cause they love their country creed or religon more than others ?? love is what binds us and it is what separates us !!!
i once loved too ... atleast i thought so !!! i'm incapable of it ... there are days when i feel that i want to feel that feeling again !! to get back that ability to like some one ...
but no ... what i really want now is to be cold so that nothing bothers me nor pleases me ... so that i can be one with all yet not be with any1 ... so that all men can count me to be with them
but none too much !!!
all i want is peace ... ever lasting peace ... not for me ... but for everyone !!! but is that what i truly want ??
all i know for sure is that i am confused right now ... maybe its the feeling of the exams approaching ... maybe the feeling of being alone is on this planet of 6 billion people ..
what am i living for ?? the music still keeps me here ... thats all
just a free man with nothing to lose ...
About Me
- Metal
- I think the highest and lowest points are the important ones. Anything else is just...in between. I want the freedom to try everything
5 comments:
sexy post...... nice start..... just carry on... the main thing with blogs is that u start losing interest before u realise that u r losing "it"..... just be interested and enjoy them.....
and ya visit my blog too.....
http://kazshah.blogspot.com/
that the link....lols.....
enjoy!!!!
Hey Anish,
Good thing u started a blog. Coz u never reply to my msgs ya. this is a great way to keep in touch... ill write to u, and u can publish the replies. people read all the emails, its so embarrassing explaining about us.Its gonna be awesome yaar. By the way, u want to get together sometime. Really miss having u around yaar...
Lots of love
hehe...naughty boy
heyy nice blog....umm 1 thin ... HOW CUM NOMENTION OF THE BROTHERS HUH....I GUESS WE ARE NOT PART OF UR LITTLE WORLD...lol k....keep it up man
You go, girlfriend !
i'm leaving my comment. i stayed up from twelve to two reading your blog. and i'm leaving my comment. i don't know if i can get up at half five tomorrow to meet you to jog cause i got locked out of my room and shit, long loong story. but the day after for sure if not tomorrow. i honestly liked the blog, except for a few random sentences where you sound ABSOLUTELY confused. heh. having said that i also loved certain lines which made a lot of sense to me. really. i still remember a couple of them, could relate to it. anyway. i really want to sleep now and if my phone was near i'd message and tell you i liked it and shit, but i'm taking my chances on the internet anyway. oh and who's calling you naughty boy? man! see ya later, fooooooooool:):):):):):):):):):)
i like smilys, really.
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